Well, now I feel, that the journey really has been started.
Last week we´ve handed in our notice, so it`s fix now, we leave this wonderful house here in Bermaringen at the end of april.
Two years we lived together as an open family system. “We” means 3-5 underage refugees, small kids for some weeks, short time house guests, two of my kids, our old dog Josi, Aharon and me.
There was a lot of change around Aharon and me and so it was the absolutely highest priority for us to really get to the core of all. And we´ve got. We came closer and closer, singing, speaking, contemplating together. It was really a very intense, most rich and also challenging time we´ve shared.
I think for every mother it is a big step, when the living time with her kids comes to an end.
For me it ends now earlier as I thought. My youngest son decided to live the last two school years at his father´s home. I know its also a precious love present from him. Now I am free to move with Aharon wherever life is leading us to.
An inner and outer farewell process started. It feels like a storm within the emotional body, a wild mixture of feelings of deep grace, happiness, sadness, letting-go, holding, hiding, opening…
To soothe this process, it`s helpful for me to start with something practical. So I began to tidy out my beloved books. Oh, with each book I take in my hands so many memories are rising up. With everyone there is a history of my life connected. They were so loyal companions over such a long time.
But, I have to let them go in love...